Monday, May 16, 2011

Work.  It's been bringing me down little by little.
I never like to really complain about work, just the usual about "long day, tired this, tired that" sort of thing.  I am really glad I have a job, I really am.  But the truth is, that it's tearing me down! I thought I would blog to you lovelies, because maybe I'm not the only one in this predicament. Am I?

When I started, I had just gotten married and felt great!  I had been working out 5 to 6 days a week for the last 6 months, which gave me confidence.  I was buying a bit cuter clothes, my hair was done, and my makeup was done.  Now, my clothes are all "work clothes", dirty with holes.  My hair is never done for work, and I can't wear makeup because my skin has broken out the worst in my life due to stress.  By the way, lol, I guess I forgot to mention what I do.  I work at a warehouse moving boxes. Why? Well, I was tired of being a waitress, no longer need part time work as a student, and my anxiety in large crowds began to intrude.  I had been doing bookkeeping at the restaurant and wanted to pursue that full time.  I did a temporary position as a phone teller and part of it was wonderful, but there wasn't enough work to keep busy and my anxiety was getting worse because the training I got was so limited I didn't feel like I was helping customers as much as I could.  My husband works where I do, so we now have the same schedule, which is a good part.  I love seeing him on breaks and having him there to give me a smile. :)  I've realized that the heavy work load (10 hour shifts, very heavy lifting) is weighing on me much more than I like.  I don't like going out in public as much, my self esteem has gone way down, and I don't feel I can be the wife my husband deserves.  So after alllll this explanation...I've decided to do my best to <3 me again. I thought I would share some steps I'm taking to make the days a little brighter! 

For a couple weeks now, I have started replacing the soda I love at work, to drinking 2 liters of H20 a day!
       It was hard at first but it's going much better now, and better yet I feel better about my choice.

I'm cutting back on the sugar!
      If you know me personally, you know I'm a confessed sugar fiend. But maybe cutting back as much as I can will help me feel better about how I look...I'm taking it one day at a time.

Today I went tanning.
      Before you judge, I live in Oregon=limited sun/lots of rain, I work in a warehouse with no windows for 40 hours a week, and I've never been orange in my life.  It makes me feel so good, and I am praying it will help clear up my skin! *crosses fingers*

After my friend's wedding this summer, which means I will have a little extra cash after all the events to spare, I am gonna go to the salon and get my hair done completely different! Something new and maybe a pretty color! I think this will give a great boost of confidence.

And last but not least....running.  I'm trying my absolute hardest, even if I can only muster it on the weekends!

Well lovelies, I know this was a long post, but it felt great to set all these goals down in print!  Are you feeling low? What do you do daily to make yourself happy? Any suggestions?  I would love to hear :) You're all worth the world lovelies.


  1. If your job is draining you, you must find a new job! It is not worth the money to lose yourself. I think part of being a girl and having confidence comes from doing what makes you feel most comfortable. When I can express myself, ie. do my hair, wear somewhat what I choose for work, makeup, etc, I feel more me, and just better in general. I would definitely agree with drinking more water to feel better though! I have been trying that for some time now, very tough some days! I'm still working on a healthier diet... I think we all go through these times though. Just keep trying your best and forget the rest!! (as Rev Run would say! haha)

  2. Thank you so much for your comment :) I totally applied for a cake decorating position at Safeway today! I love your style and love Rev Run lol Keep on being amazing Liz!


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